Following up on my last post about the possibility of adopting a sibling pair instead of a singleton, I think I would have to say that my state of mind continues to be one of pondering. I think everyone had very good advice and I came down to two opposing viewpoints. One, that it would be fabulous to have siblings because of their biological bond and shared experience of being adopted into our family. The other, that it would be HARD to do. Actually, I am not that afraid of something being difficult for me, but I am more afraid of it being hard for Manny. It's okay with me that I am feeling this way, caught between two viewpoints, feeling two things at the same time, yes and no, I can, I can't. It seems, for me, that this is the nature of decision making in adoption and I am accustomed to it by this point in my journey. So I am sitting on that decision, we have time to think about it.
I feel like I have been completely missing from blogland and fb, but the reasons why are so excellent. Manny is in Wild Earth camp which is so amazing, he loves it. Yesterday he got stuck in the eye with a fishing pole (the homemade pretend kind) and burst a blood vessel and I was assured that he was fine, no pain, no crying even. But I was going to work in the afternoon and it seemed imperative that I see that eye before going to work. Indeed, his eye has a big broken blood vessel and is, well, blood red. But no damage to the eyeball itself and no pain. And he didn't want to leave camp to come home! Now, that is some, for real, wild earth. Wait. That is not an excellent reason why I have been missing from blogland. The excellent reason is that while Manny has been in camp I have not been organizing my underwear drawer, cleaning the garage, or weeding. I have been HIKING in the mountains, hiking like a sweating hiking fool almost every day. And reading, reading like a lazy little hog with a book dangling in front of my nose. And eating food from our CSA share, fresh lettuce and cucumbers. Oh, and I harvested 11 zucchinis from my yard this week. Yes, our zucchini plants are stuck in the flower garden because I have no real room for a real garden in our very shady yard. In short, I have been living summer, really soaking it in, and that is where I have been.
I have also been immersed in the Crash Course in Transracial Adoption, starting my second book and just finishing watching the companion DVD to "Adopted, the Movie." Tough stuff. I love the adult adoptees joining with adoptive parents to talk it out, though. It's been a fantastic opportunity.
Oh, and my birthday passed and it was fabulous! My best in years, for some reason. My next post will be a catch up on photos of the summer so far, Pete's marathon, random Manny, and my birthday. Hope you are all making the most of every day.